Last week was a rough one, so much emotional drama. After about a year of not dealing with something, it finally came to a head. I couldn't just ignore it any longer, and so it got dealt with. And you know, I didn't realize what a weight that whole mess was until finally it was gone. I wish I had had the courage, the strength, the whatever it was, to deal with it a year ago. Maybe NOW was right time, even though it was a hard time, maybe I needed that time for growth?
Whatever the reason, what's done is done. And I am better for it. I worry too much about what people think of me, if people like me, if they want to be my friend. Instead I should be wondering should I allow myself, my family, my children to be treated this way just so I don't upset someone? This time I decided that "Nope, this isn't how we deserve to be treated". And so we worked it out. And it was good, really good. Suddenly I realize that we are worth more, my kids deserve better, and it's ok that not everyone likes me. It is a totally freeing feeling. Not that I'm going to turn into a jerk or something, but I am surely not going to sit back and allow us to be hurt again just to not make waves. Waves work to make change, and change is good.